So we wished for snow… especially for Christmas. I prayed for it. There was plenty. Did I touch it ? No… I just liked the color of everything in a tone of heavy white. And? That was it… [I like to dialogue with myself]
So we wished to have another December… especially Christmas. New Year’s too, but more Christmas. Empty… I know what the meaning of it should have been but I got carried away by my thoughts and things “to do” or “to buy”. And? That was it…
So we wished to dream bigger… especially in the December for the new year to come. I know what I should change and I have an idea for new dreams that should help me aim really high… But I got shut down, by myself mostly… I’m tired of blaming others even when they’re at fault. And? That was it…
So we wished to be happy… especially this season… just so we can get by another year, or half of it, or maybe 5, 4, 3, 2 or 1 month of it…. so it would be easier. And I thought that feeding some hungry homeless people would do that (make me happy). And I’ve stopped myself. I realized that I would be a hypocrite to do it now when the whole year I’ve ignored them; just so I can feel better this Christmas? Let it burn in my conscience, let it rise a fire in me for those who need the little help I can offer. And? That was it…
Maybe the whiteness of snow reminded me of purity; maybe Christmas reminded me about Salvation; maybe my dreams reminded me of my potential; maybe my desire for happiness reminded me of God. But I am still Robert… still trying to change…
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year… to YOU and ME!
Robert Voica
